♥2:51 AM

In or out;
there's nothing left to say;
just perfect, yes;
that's the word for it.Perfect~

At home alone.
Pieces and pieces of tissues,
packets and packets of tissues,
boxes and boxes of tissues
all had become my companions for today.

♥1:24 PM

Now, I just feel super-extremely-exhausted as if someone with evil plans using her evil vacuum to suck up all my energy to do my assignments, in total of 3 assignments. I planned to do my Autocad thingy, everything done by tonight, but, Mr Sandman had already pour piles and piles of sand on top of my eyelids and now they are extremely heavy. I just wished that Sponge-Bob would be kind enough to be alive to blow all the sands away. Really, I want to do my assignments but I'm just too sleepy. So, I've decided to sleep early today, before the clock strikes 12.

Have you ever wish that pixie dusts are available in 7-11 stores so that it's easier to wish something on something that can really make that wish come true? Or perhaps wishing that you could have your very own fairy-godmother so that she'll understand your every wants and making your wants there beside you?

With pixie dusts you can wish that Barney would finally come alive not being an angry dinosaur but being the friendly way he is just like Casper, so that he'll give you the biggest and warmest hug ever after you're feeling like shit hearing the most shitty songs and wondering of those shitty things. Even if you don't like the colour purple to be hugging you, you'll ask nicely to Barney to wear something red or perhaps just black since black makes people look slimmer and maybe in this case dinosaurs too. With a fairy-godmother you can wish anything that you ever wanted especially that thing right this very moment on your mind right now that you're thinking about. Yes, she'll make that thing come true with all of her magic plus a lot of efforts being used. She'll do that cause I'm sure that's what fairy-godmothers do. Plus, it doesn't cost a bomb like how maybe that pixie dusts cost so just remember to be nice to her.

Psst: I still can't clear off the piles of sand on top of my eyelids.
Nitty nites wishing mariposas.

♥11:34 PM

Somewhere out there;
we strangers got something to share.




shikinmnh & shidahmnh
SFL
I don't know why the pictures up there are being posted, random much
plus she's my sister, why can't I.

I should be sleeping now if I don't want to wake up one hour after my mother sing me to be awake. Yes, she sings in the morning just so that it'll be irritating enough for me to leave my dreamland so that I can wake up. But, now, after 18 years of hardship, that song doesn't seem to irritate me any longer. I have learnt to push that song aside and just continue meeting the fairies in my dreamland. Or, even better, that so-called-irritating song will just blend in together with what I'm dreaming thus instead of waking up at 0500, now my waking up time is at 0600. Which concludes that I have one hour to get ready for school. I feel like superwoman now that I can be ready within one hour. So, by 0700, I have to make my way to meet the rest of the sardines which we will always be packed closely with one another.

Tuesday, which is technically today, I have class in the morning from 0900 to 1200 only. I have to wake up early just for three hours of lesson, maybe less. That's my life~ Oh well. I'm used to it, getting use to it even more. So since we have assignments to be done using this Autocad thingy, we planned to do it at school. Staying back much. Thus, I feel a little better that I still can do something with my effort of waking up early. But, going home earlier is kind of fun too...

Bump, bump, bump...
*crossing my fingers till blood, which is actually my red paint, come oozing out*
Psst: I painted alot today && I sketched alot too
even played with my gel crayons which I bought years ago.
Nitty nites flying mariposas.
((:

♥12:51 AM

You're strumming your guitar late at night;
just waiting for me and attracting my sight;
but at the same time I wish I could be there;
just sitting beside you and having stories to share.

Now its nearly 0400, Sunday, 9th August 2009. So before I start describing about my day, Singapore, Happy 44th birthday! So old but still have not grown any grey hair, I'm so going to ask you the formula to your success. I hope that you'll be more updated rather than being outdated with stuffs going all around. I also hope that you'll wear more green shirt cause it really suits you. Your colour, my dear Singapore. And remember to be clean cause no one wants to be dirty.

My Saturday was quite simple but it turned out to be quite fun cause I really laughed and did not fake any. I finally get to wake up late rather than waking up damn early to go to school which is about two hours journey. Spent a little time with my sister watching shows and laughing at our silliness. In the afternoon, got ready to go to meet my evdians for Sarah's BBQ bonanza.

Some foods that I got to eat were rather interesting, such as the squid with something-something-that-looked-ooey-but-the-taste-was-not-that-ooey and otah-otah with leaves that taste different but equally nice. Some poeple went off early and some didn't come. But, nonetheless, I got my closest clique to make me feel well. The rest of the evdians just made everything well-ER. We entertained ourselves with self-made jokes and some tuning game that Eunice taught us. There was also a chocolate fondue that most of us can't move away from. And also some conversations heard by Ayu aka Junaidah until me aka Juliana and Syufy aka Aprilina were being captured candid-ly. We made a move at around 2130 and I reached my home-town at around 2345. Met my family at the void-deck as they were from my Grandparents (father's side) house.

Oh damn, that particular person looked so similar lah oi! So similar that makes me recalling. So similar that makes me want to strangle that similar-person (violent eh, hahaha, it's just words). So similar that makes me want to go near and stare, just stare (words again, psst, I natter alot).

Reached home and wished Singapore and I actually did forced my family to wish too. Sang a birthday song moments ago. I can't sleep so I decided to spent time with lappy since it's been long since I stayed up late spending quality time with lappy. I miss this feeling of doing whatever I like till late hours in the morning. Since school started, I always have been staying up late hours to finish up assignments. So, this feeling and that feelings are just way so different. I didn't feel like onlining, I just wanted to slacked cause tomorrow I don't want to waste any time, if possible.

Now, I'm strumming songs out of Blackie. I kind of like these particular songs, Miserable at best by Mayday Parade and Knock you down by Keri Hilson even though both quite old songs, but whatever it is, old songs rocks my guitar strings off so I have to find replacements soon. I want to change my blog-songs but I misplaced the keys to my locker in my brain where I placed the passwords to my mixpod-thingy. So plan can't continue and I hate it that it had to be delayed.

Before my mother wakes up and notice that I am still wide awake, I should be going to bed real soon.
Nitty-nites early mariposas.
Note to pictures-taker (hahaha *wink-wink*), I will upload pictures at my multiply soon.

Now, it's up to you.
I have nothing, at the time being, left to say.

♥3:45 AM

She is just a girl
so lonely and confused,
he is just a boy
so lovely but is being used.



I don't know when will this silly thing end especially now, since there's someone uninvited trying to take over and becoming like what-not-super-hero-person-whatever-shit-you're-trying-to-do-miss-whoever-you-are-stating-stuffs-as-if-you're-a-super-expert-at-judging-people-whether-they-are-true-friends-or-not. I know this sentence is kinda long so slowly read it and suck it all in. There's no more mariposas in this post cause you, miss-whoever-you-are, just made a wrong move. Totally you did. You have no rights at all calling us dumb and stupid. Who are you to call us that, a true friend of Hanis? Well, if you are, then I'm still sorry, you still have no rights in calling us that. We cracked our brains up before every meeting just to plan the PERFECT outing so that ALL can meet up so don't call us stupid or dumb cause obviously we are not.

Knock-knock on your head miss, hello, we so don't need you to tell us how to be a true friend and stuffs like that cause obviously we know how to. We really do. That's why we are still strong together. If you're saying in your mind right now that "Hey, you're not strong together cause one is being left down.", well then, that's too bad. Well, Hanis, I'm not saying that you're totally in the wrong as in alone in the wrong. But think, if you realised something wrong and apologising first, then wouldn't we apologise to you of not asking you out on that day? Think, please just think. You just made the whole matter worst. Now with you true-friend-by-your-side-that-miss-whoever-she-is, the matter had became worse-R. But now, you're saying you don't want to care nor to bother? Sure? And don't you think we're tired too?

I don't actually intend to reply and babble about this cause I'm TIRED of thinking and wondering what's on your mind. Psst: Do you know that a good crime detective has to do several researches before coming up with a final conclusion? So after knowing this, before anyone judge anything, that someone has to know BOTH side of the story. Knowing one side isn't enough, you need to cross-reference my dear~ If you don't know how to do a fair judgement, then I advice you, not to judge anything until you know the right methods. I'm telling you this cause really this is the fundamentals my dear~

And let me clear this part up, we like to get back home before 10 if possible cause we don't like our parents to worry about us. So yeah, I think you mistook me when I mentioned weeee hours cause obviously you're not my friend as we have the same type of dictionary in our mind. See, what I meant by you're making a wrong move in calling us stupid and dumb. And p.s, I'm trying hard to control myself from exploding out canon-balls to you miss.

TRUE friends, true friends share lots of ups and downs moments in life. We'll say our favourite things, share our happiness, spend lovely simple yet sweet memories, telling our hopes and dreams, giving each other words of advices and not forgetting say our bad habits, share our fears and tears, experiencing fights which slowly will always be settle, telling our nightmares and giving each other words of reality. True friends made sacrifices even though feeling tired, time has to be made and care has to be shown. And true friends don't easily throw their true friends away, they try their bestest and hardest to win them back even if blood is require. True friends are not easily found but they have to be slowly earn, by that it takes years not months. But in this case, true friends are not easily found cause they are all mine.

I should be re-doing my colour wheel but I sacrificed my time just so to let my true friends know that I love them and appreciate each one of them a lot!
Till the end alrighty-mighty.
*crossing my fingers as tightly as I can*

Note to the world: Actions speak louder than words but if there is no actions and no words, how are people suppose to know? Having superpowers?

♥10:33 PM

I don't ever want to trust you.
I don't ever want to read your mind.
Cause I know, you can control it the way you want it to be.
So I'll try to read you heart and your eyes instead.
As I believe, eyes and hearts can never lie.



I didn't attend school today. Migraine much, hate it. I feel super dizzy and my vision became totally blurred in the morning. So I couldn't possibly take the bus and the train which to me represent cans of sardines and I'm one of them being all packed tightly together like the particles in a solid. I will obviously feel like fainting so in order not to faint in the train like its nobody's business, I avoid going to school. Now, feel much better and I have to get my assignments done.

Did I mention, I'm drawing. Not doodling no more, drawing, with fixed lines and objects which I have to use a view finder to really make it proportionate and stuffs. I am nervous of the final assignment which I think we have to paint on a large-squarish-canvas-like-thingy. Well, to me it's large as I don't even paint on small ones. The last time I painted was when I'm in Secondary two. My painting was not bad but that was Secondary two, let me repeat myself. It's like about four years since I last paint. I need to find my paint brushes that I had which I spent so much on them as I remembered, my art teacher wanted me to have several sizes. So hopefully I can find them, I don't want to buy new ones as I want to save money for shopping and doing something to my hair. I miss shopping and going to hair saloons. Really, I do.

There will come a day when you'll feel like shit and you'll want to give up on this life and everything else when that day arrives save yourself some trouble and don't do a thing just take a nap - taken from somewhere not Siti Noorashikin MNH's

Off to give shadings to my drawings.

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