Thursday, 26TH February.
Enjoyed my day with my dearest friends and finally the five of us were there, all five no one was missing, Farna, Dayah, Tiqah, Hanis and not forgetting me. We did have fun till the end, laughing, laughing and laughing. Farna did a lot of shopping while I did a lot of browsing. While browsing on items that attract my eyes, I technically make a new stuffs-to-buy list. But, unfortunately for me, I can’t make a list on stuffs-to-buy cause I will tend to buy something different and totally not written on the list. This was noticed by me a long time ago, not when the World War 2 was held though, just few days, months or maybe years back.

The four of them were wearing black, four and left me with purple. The picture above was taken by me, obviously, and it was some-what taken in the very last seconds while the escalator was reaching to the end and we were a few steps away. I was nervous because my imagination ran wild as I imagined that the picture will turn out blurry or something but it turned out fine and no one was hurt. There was this moment, while we were having brunch at LJS, it was so us, hahaha. Not going to type it out here, it will be left in my memory box. We had a very sweet moment sending and waving Hanis to her work place, it was like Hanis was going overseas. Literally, Hanis did as her workplace is at Sentosa so she did have to go over-the-sea. Then, a few hours later, we had to make our move as Farna had to go home. Even though, we had to leave early, we still enjoyed our day.

Friday, 27TH February.
I went for the medical check-up for the poly thingy and it was super interesting cause the place said especially for poly students but there were old aunties and Korean workers taking their medical check-ups too. Maybe they were just not giving up in their education and still holding on to be successful in their life or simply just the poly students been tricked, that place was not specially for us, we had to share it. I went to have my check-up quite early as my father was only free during that period of time. So I forced myself to wake up that morning and went to get checked-up with a very sleepy attitude. And due to my sleepiness, I did many funny little acts which made the nurses laugh. I think I’ve made their day, add in a few jokes to spice up the mundane situation.

The medical check-up consists of taking X-rays, urine test, vision test, height and weight and consultation from the doctor. We had to go from one room to another, so I had bounced to many random poly students, and lucky them, I smiled and showed that I mean no harm. I was friendly that day, let’s add extra before the word friendly, even though I was feeling rather sleepy. Only that, I wasn’t friendly at all with this wanna-be-bimbotic-looking-ah-lian. She was weird I tell you, she was flipping her hair and walking around with noisy irritating sounds that came out of her mouth and I think she did all this to get the attention from everyone. Now can call her the attention-seeker-at-medical-check-up cum wanna-be-bimbotic-looking-ah-lian. Whoa, she gotten herself a long nickname from me.

In the X-ray room, we had to change into X-ray-taking-gowns, and I didn’t know how to wear the gown in the right way. They had instructions in the changing room but I was too sleepy to understand them so I wear it my own way. The nurse realised and told me that I had great fashion sense. I didn’t reply her in any way cause I was feeling way too awkward wearing the gown and nothing else. When it was my turn, I was holding on to the locker’s key so I asked the nurse nicely, “May I leave this key here for a while?”. Well, I know that in X-ray room, there shouldn't be any metal things right?, so I was paranoid. Then the nurses laughed saying you may bring it in. I was still paranoid so I leave the keys on the table inside the room.

Then had to go for the urine test, this was when I feel so really embarrassed. The washroom and the room that we had to go to was very far. I was feeling as though I was showing off my cup-filled-with-you-know-what to everyone. But, I wasn’t alone, every poly students had to do it. I was the only one holding the cup with tissue covering it and the rest of the poly students hold it in thin air literally showing off their urines. It was so nauseating I tell you.

While waiting for my turn to take the vision test, I made a new friend, a Chinese girl who was going to study at SP. She told me what course she’s taking but I forgotten what was it. Well, we talked as the waiting time is so long. When it was her turn, I almost talk to a Malay girl who looked kind of friendly but apparently she was with her mother. When it was my turn to take the vision test, I made yet another face-blushing moment. In order to take my course, I can’t be colour blind so I have to pass this test and I know I’m not colour blind. Unfortunately, as I kept repeating, I was sleepy so my eyes made me say the unexpected things. I looked at the card for quite a long time so the nurse asked me if I was really not colour-blind. Then I quickly answered “butterfly” cause the shape seriously looked like the butterfly’s wings. It shocked the nurses and they laughed and asked me if I were serious. Then I stared and finally I answered correctly which it was the number 6. Lucky them, I didn’t answered “elephant ears” cause that was the first thing that came out from my mind, if not they’ll be more shocked.

While taking my height, I heard the nurse saying I was 165cm tall, I guess my ears were sleepy too. I was shocked and surprised and all that equals to plain happy so I gave out a loud “huh, 165?”. The nurse said a clear no so I told her to retake it cause I wasn’t standing straight. Finally my ears were not sleepy and I was standing straighter my height’s 162cm, the way it is.

While sitting outside the doctor’s room, I made a new friend again. Well, actually he asked me a question and we talked during the whole wait. One phrase to describe him, geeky-Chinese-guy-yet-very-good-looking. He brought along his SP thingy, that made him looked geeky. Yeah, again, made a friend from SP. I can’t find any TP students, I think I’m the only one. He was funny, the doctor’s consultation was the last thing we had to do, but he still sat outside waiting for something to happen. Well, he was a very blur person I supposed. Lucky I was friendly, I told him we could go back and he told me “Thanks for telling if not, I’ll be waiting here waiting for my name to be called.” Told you he was blur.

Siti Noorashikin took almost 3 hours to complete typing out this post, from 11pm to almost 2am. She was just multi-tasking, doing several stuffs at the same time. So now, she's off to bed and she's making ideas to surprise her mother cause apparently tomorrow which is now already today, the 1st of March is her mother's birthday.

♥11:08 PM

Have you ever stepped-upon this situation of when you want to fool a person, you got yourself fooled by your own foolish act? Well, actually, in the first place you don’t really intend to fool that person with the act that you had put up but your honest reason to do that particular act was that you just want to know what’s really in that particular person’s eyes. That’s all, no strings attached. By doing this act, that person will not know who you really are so it’s like you’re a secret someone with a secret identity that will remain a secret forever. But slowly it’s hard to continue with that act that you’ve planned and you just want to stop it cause slowly that act affects you so much and you can’t take it any longer. You want the act to stop but it can’t cause it had already started and now you just wish to turn back time.

However, you can’t turn back time cause you’re not God and you don’t have superpower which enables you to do so. So, unfortunately for you, you have to suffer and now you realised that you are being fooled by your own foolish act. The person that was being fooled by you doesn’t seem to bother cause maybe that person don’t really mind nor care of what is happening cause maybe that person has some back-up plans. Every time you had the thoughts of telling the truth, you just can’t cause you’re not daring enough but you want to cause it’s the right thing to be doing as lying is no longer an easy task and slowly your mind is tired of all the indecisive decisions and you give up and break-down. Well, since that person rarely know you and you rarely know the person too, it’s like you’re wasting your tears for someone totally not important in your life. I said you’re wasting cause simply tears are very precious. Then you finally realised that you’re tearing up cause you just want it to be but it just can’t as it’s not even real, it’s all just pretend.

Having to pretend everything is fine is totally not fine. This required more efforts than you could ever think it is going to be. It’s like you thought the effort you’ll need to do this is about one plate of chicken rice but it’s not. The efforts that you’ll be needing is about two plates of Nasi Pandang instead, two plates, that’s a lot I’ll tell you. When you pretend, it’s like you’re lying but not bad lies I suppose. As when you’re pretending, you don’t want to show that person your inner you or you want to be mysterious or you want to hide those exceptional feelings away or you just want to show that person that you’re fine and nothing’s bothering you so that person don’t have to worry much about you.

You did all this pretending just so you know that you’re at least doing a good deed to that person of not hurting that person too much. Pretending also means that you have to come up with loads of excuses but now, there isn’t any more good excuses available in your mind cause your mind is now blocked and you just feel loss in direction, easily said, you’re totally confused. So now, the only thing left in your mind is that will the truths reveal itself one day or you have to continue to pretend everything’s ok like as if it’s part of your lifelong-job.

Enough nattering for now, Siti Noorashikin should head off to her bed and get her rest before her little version of grandfather clock dings at 1am. She needs her rest as later on, since now is already tomorrow which is today, she will be going out, having fun with her closest friends. Siti Noorashikin really can't wait to go out with them. Siti Noorashikin is toodle-ing you readers reading this. Since, this is a long post of nattering (Actually it's not that long, she could make it longer but nahh, she doesn't want to.) if you read this till the end of this very last sentence's full-stop, she just want to shout out to you that, she loves you for reading. (Let's bold the word reading.)

♥12:35 AM

On the 20th of February I laughed and laughed until I forgotten that I was holding a camera which I should have used it to snap loads of pictures, and had a jolly-fun time with the greatest people ever. Yeah, they were my classmates, the greatest I’ll repeat because I just have to. Don’t ask me why I have to freaking repeat it, I just want to cause I want to show-off how great they are. Cause they are great and nothing can stop them from being great. I can continue describing how great they are right now but maybe I have to proceed on with the story-telling instead.



Even some stuffs happened, we still had wide smiles all over our faces throughout the whole event. Well, without those stuffs happening, this class wouldn’t be the best, we’re just exceptional the way we are. The stuffs that happened slowly resolved and we had fun even more. We played various card games. Playing Donkey will never be the same when Ilyas was around cause even in this simple game, he cheated and told everybody where the Donkey-card is at. Ilyas is simply the class clown who will only laugh at his own jokes and it’s hard to make him laugh at other funny jokes we have. We played more card games with the poker-deck-cards and Ilyas became the most special magician there is. By typing the word special, I literally mean special. He did managed to successful did a magic trick but he’s trick was way too revealing that it turned to be hilarious instead. We always turn everything funny. We enjoyed the BBQ and everyone had their tummy filled.



20th of February was also Juli’s Birthday. So we decided to surprise her with a birthday cake. It was hard distracting her. She just couldn’t be apart off and away from her best friend, Sakinah, who we planned for her to bring the cake to the birthday girl. Since there were Fadhly and Azizah, the cake was also for them. We celebrated the February’s babies birthday.

After singing the birthday song, cutting and eating the cake, we were walking-around-the-place in smaller groups. After a short-time-separation, we gathered back together and sat in a big circle and played more random games. Funny part about playing games is when people make silly-yet-interesting mistakes. Making mistakes lead to embarrassing oneself which then lead to people laughing which eventually lead to having a fun time. Poor Jian Cai had been bullied by many since he was the only Chinese guy playing with us cause the rest of the Chinese guys had to leave early due to some reasons. But, I’m sure he didn’t mind cause after-all, joking and kidding around is part and parcel of this exceptional class.

There were loads of eating and drinking and laughing and photo-taking even until the last few minutes when Farhana, Hidayah and me had to pack our bags as Farhana’s father came to fetch us. It was hard to leave the place cause we didn’t want the great times to end that fast but it was already 12pm and we didn’t actually plan to overnight so we had to leave the place with hugs from almost everyone. Lastly, Siti Noorashikin wants to shout out and say that class chalet-BBQ-gathering on the 20th of February was an awesome day, two-thumbs up and hugs and kisses from her to all that made it happened.
So click for more pictures. ♥Class chalet.

OXOX
((:

♥3:06 PM

I woke up at around 8am with weird feelings in my mouth, nose and even throat. Firstly, I was shocked, I thought my sister was still sleeping instead of being at school, later did I realised that the sound I heard wasn’t her snoring but the flipping of pages made by her textbooks lying on the bed. It really gave my goosebumps a fright I tell you. The second thing I thought was that the weird feelings that I felt was just going to turn out to be a normal flu which I usually have whenever the very moment I wake up. But unfortunately, I was wrong. It turned out to be a fever. Yeah, Siti Noorashikin fell sick today and the house had to suffer cause she didn’t clean it up and do house chores.

The weird feelings in the mouth and throat are very off-putting. I can’t stand it. The only thing that can make me feel less repulsive was that to stick out my tongue and say “AHHH”. I don’t really understand why it does make the gross-feelings go away. Well, some things in life are very unexplainable and confusing, I just have to live it without too much wondering being done. Plain cold drinks are not that thirst-quenching and rice tasted so vomit-ty. Only Milo drinks and chicken soup are being accepted by my taste-buds for today.

I’ve eaten two types of panadols, the ones for adults and also the ones for children. I just like eating children’s panadols cause it just tastes so sweet. I can suck it as if it was a candy that has strawberry-cherry flavour to it, that’s why I like taking them. Medicines are never enjoyable, so I just want to enjoy it while there’s still stock of it in the medicines’ box. I have to force myself to swallow for the adults cause afterall, I am already an adult. The ez-link sound will always remind me, and my father will always laugh at me saying I’m already old. He laughed as if it was a very hilarious joke which I don’t find it funny at all.

I am contented that I took less than 10mins to swallow the medicines with the help of hot plain water. Yeah, I will only swallow pills whenever there’s hot water available. Cold or not too cold nor not too hot water just don’t make the trick. I hate swallowing pills, I will always imagine something bad might happen. Well, don’t blame me for getting all those imaginations running wild, blame them for entering in my mind like bullets flying through the air after someone pulled the trigger. So before Siti Noorashikin ends this post, she would like to thank Mr Hot Water for making his schedule free for her to drink him. She would also like to thank her friends Farna and Dayah for caring for her and telling her to get well soon. Now Siti Noorashikin hopes she’ll be fine for tomorrow’s chalet so that she’ll be able to have fun with them. Therefore, she will sleep early tonight, before 12am, so that she’ll be getting enough rest.

♥11:00 PM

Well, today's not her day. It was on 13 of February. So I'm wishing her a happy belated birthday here and for-your-information, I so hate to use the word 'belated' like once I wished for Hanis's birthday last year. Actually I had this post all typed-out and ready to be posted but unfortunately, this post decided to be saved as draft instead. I think this post is a little bit too shy, so forgive it aites. Anyway, I had wished Zizah on her actual day so I am not too guilty or what-so-ever with it. I am wishing that she could get what she ever wanted, one of which is that she could ride a bike and get her licence. Well, have a happy life ahead my dear friend and one last note, I miss you.

Today's 14 of February, it's Valentine's Day. So,
Happy Valentine's Day to those who are celebrating it.
And to all my friends, especially from 5N1,
Happy Friendship Day!
I would name all of them but it may take too long.

Nuratiqah, Nur Hidayah, Nur Hanis, Farhana and Siti Noorashikin.
Wasting time sitting for hours and hours at "our" bus-stop.

Went out with family today and we went to Vivo. My mother wanted to watch a movie but my father just disagreed plus he will obviously sleep while the movie is playing. So we went shopping instead. While entering the Vivo's entrance, there was too much noise. My mother started to shout and talk loudly cause afterall people would not know it’s her. Surprisingly we were not the only ones who did it, there was a group of Chinese guys and they were louder than us. We shouted even louder and seconds later, we were like having conversations, we took turns to shout-cum-talk-very-loudly. Then, out of nowhere, the two groups laughed at the same time coincidentally. We we just lucky that they were the friendly type of guys.

♥11:45 PM

As you can see I had to take this from his Facebook account, hopefully he don't mind, cause actually I wanted to post the photo of the back-row people in class but I can't seem to find it. Well, I wished him at 11.40pm . I know its kind of late, very late, but hey the thoughts that counts aites. ((: So, if you're reading this Fad, all the best for you in your future endeavors (I hope I got the word right.).

About the photo of the back-row people (Buee, Fezah, Wing, Fad, Farna, me and Dayah) damn, I think I lost it or I didn't transfer it from the computer to the lappy. I am going to search for it soon, but not now, it's late. The back-row people are the bestest people to hang around with in class. Miss everyone of them. Been missing loads of friends lately. Can I highlight the word, loads. I miss the whole class of 5N1. Now, I just can't simply wait for the coming class chalet on the 20th Feb.

Talking about friends, Siti Noorashikin is super slow to realise that her closest buddies will all be in different schools. As she said to Farna, it's fair now that all of them don't have partners (brighter side of this situation.). Hanis, Dayah, Tiqah, Farna plus Shikin and not forgetting Zah-square, will all be proceeding their educations in different routes, places, surroundings and everything to the matter of fact. Thus, Siti Noorashikin really hopes that their friendship will still remain the same till the end and that they must keep-in-contact and not MIT also-known-as missing-in-texting.

♥11:40 PM

Watched Music and Lyrics at home alone. It's a sweet movie but not as sweet as The Notebook. Music and Lyrics is a sweet-cute-movie while The Notebook is really a sweet-sweet-movie. Yeah, I know, both are so outdated movies. I don't really mind cause mainly today, I was tired and bored. Finally, I used the word 'bored' cause I should have used the word since the holidays started as I am enjoying myself being at home rather than working like my other friends. I don't slack at home doing nothing however, I do loads of things plus I do go out. So my schedule can also be as busy as a working person's.

My sister and I were about to start guitar lessons but my mother was worried that we might miss the March lessons cause we'll be going for another holiday trip to Genting Highlands. Missing lessons will be such a waste so guitar lessons will be postponed, again. After movie watching, I went reading. The following paragraphs and so on were written, inspired by what I read.

Well, it’s like feeling of knowing something is missing in your life but not being able to find it no matter how hard you look. Even if you asked around, they will never help you find the right thing you’re searching for cause life is just unpredictable and you will never expect what might come next. You can even google on it and press search but it will still never be found.

A feeling of not being able to find something is also feeling like suddenly not remembering the words to your favourite song that you knew off by heart. It’s like suddenly forgetting the name of someone you know really well and see every day, or the name of a group who sang a very famous song. It’s something so frustrating that it plays on your mind over and over again because you know there’s an answer but no one can tell you and even you are not clear of it. It niggles and niggles and never will it stop until the thing that’s been missing is found.

♥11:17 PM

Had to wake up early to attend religion class. My mother was shouting and shouting for me and my sister to wake up but we were just putting her screams aside cause it was too lovely to leave the bed. It is hard for us to wake up on a Sunday morning but nevertheless, my mother never ever gives up. She will always find ways to make us be irritated and finally one of us went marching for the washroom.

One thing that really made me feel bushed out was that going to religion class with a running water tap as a nose. I used up 4 packets of tissue while waiting for my turn and it was difficult for me to pronounce the phrases correctly. Luckily I brought enough packets of tissue or else I’ll be suffering from holding the mucus up in my nose for a very long time. My little cousin, Iman (She really dislikes being called by her first name which is Aliya and she would ignore me if I call her by that.), was being a good girl cause she didn’t interrupt me while I’m preparing myself for my turn. She wanted to show me her new Nintendo game but instead she showed it to my sister cause she know I’m just busy with both my constant blowing of my nose and reading the phrases.

While it was my turn, everybody was chit-chatting even the Uztazah cause her eyes fell in love with the bag that an aunty had brought along. Everybody was talking about how big-bags-rules-and-little-bags-drool. So I kept quiet for all to settle down with the bag issue and I laughed silently cause the Uztazah thought that I had finished reading. This simply proves that she wasn’t paying attention to me, too engrossed with the bag. Well, my flu didn’t bring out the best in me so I had to stay on the same page and read it again the next time. Went back home and slept cause I was too worn-out due to the flu.

On Saturday, My family and I went to Jurong Point and somebody fainted in the middle of a huge crowd. Imagine having a really bad people-jam and suddenly without any warning signals, somebody made it all even worst, it was really a hassle. His friend really panicked and didn’t know what to do. There was this thoughtful aunty who gave a bottle of medicated oil and it woke him up and the kind Pizza Hut manager gave the guy a glass of water. The fainted guy’s friend wanted to carry him up but didn’t have the strengths to carry him alone. There was a kind guy walking by and he was willing to help. My kind mother told them to carry him to get some fresh air. All this kind people really were the “heroes” cause his friend really didn’t know what to do. Even number of slaps didn’t wake him up. Siti Noorashikin would like to say that kind-people-rules-and-people-who-simply-ignored-as-if-nothing-happened-drool.

I watched Bride wars and I like the story the part of which it’s about a bestfriend really missing her bestfriend. At this very minute, Siti Noorashikin really agrees at someone about something that really do mean everything.

♥5:47 PM

Becoming like Batman, Superman and even Hannah Montana must be very tough. Having double identities which one of it is a secret that nobody knows and nobody can ever find out. That secret that you’re hiding is really the biggest secret ever that you kept within you. Keeping this kind of secret is really hard and every time in life, you just wish you could reveal this secret you’re having. You just want to reveal this secret cause you’re just damn tired of keeping it any longer. You want to reveal and share this secret cause maybe by sharing, it will make you feel better. But you just can’t seem to share it with anyone cause eventually, if your biggest secret is being told, it will wreck your entire life. So you have to force yourself to stick with the plan, not to let anyone know about it and just continue having double identities.

Having two identities, you have to be yourself in front of your own life and then you have to become someone else in front of people. Having to juggle your inner real self and to pretend to be someone else, must really be a bummer. To pretend and to lie, is it the same thing or is it totally different or is it a little bit the same? If to pretend and to lie have the same meanings, this means that those people who have double identities are really bad cause they’re trying to be someone they’re really not. So double identities catchers, arrest those people. But if they have different meanings, to pretend is much more to the good side, I guess. So just let them continue pretending, cause it’s their life, let them have all the legal rights for them to run their own life. We’ll just hope that all their pretending acts don’t hurt anyone both physically and emotionally.

Actually, this post has nothing to do with neither Batman, Superman nor Hannah Montana, they’re just being used as examples to show what double identities means. Talking about double identities, should I have it for myself? And if I already had it, should I tell anyone about it? Or should I just let pretending be part of my life and continue to keep it as a secret? Oh well, Siti Noorashikin had found out that double identities is so not part of the must-have-lists for life cause it really sucks big time. But if she had to have one, then she'll just bare with it like how she's holding the pain of playing the guitar to learn a random song for one whole hour and maybe even more than that.

Talking about guitars, how can I keep it away from dust cause every time I pick it up to play, I'll have to wipe it all over. I'm wiping it with a piece of tissue paper but I'm scared it's going to leave some marks on it instead cause it's black, so totally marks seen-able. Is it the right way to take care of this "delicate" instument? Hmm, Siti Noorashikin wonders...

♥12:43 AM