I know I have not been updating this site regularly so I would like to apologise for those who kept coming here but always get their feelings been crushed as if someone you despise already gotten that new designer clothes from your favourite designer store and you know that it suit perfectly well on you and you’re planning to buy it but that person bought it first.

Sometimes in life there are some beautiful things that keep occurring and you really don’t want it to end. But when those beautiful things just doesn’t go the right way as you planned, your left mind (if there’s such a thing) really wants it to stop so you’d want to take a long journey to a place called Nowhere to just leave it all behind and start back and climb a new whole set of stairs in life. But at the same time, your right mind just wants to stay cause you never want to leave that beautiful thing behind as its way too precious to let it go and you just can’t carry on without it happening in your life.

Now, you just step into the club of indecisive people who have two separate minds like you, so don’t feel left out when entering this club. But remember, when you enter this club, it will not help you make the decisions.

Now, I want to natter about that brownish-yucky-coloured-small-horrible-crawling-with-feelers thingy which are very poor, poor-er that human beings and maybe aliens too cause they steal foods whenever they go visiting anyone’s crib. Yes, I’m nattering about those yucky cockroaches which use their feelers to discover what’s around them. I loathe them super much. How they craw so fast like as if they are sliding all around the floor just make my goosebumps appear cause it make me imagine what if they manage to crawl towards me and on me. That’s the reason why I always prefer to be at least few distances away from them if I see their presence.

But what if, I saw them while I was preparing myself to meet my friends crawling pass my room. Yes, that yucky thing did exactly just that. I couldn’t move and I really want to know where it went so that I will not meet eye to feelers with it. There was no one to help me cause everyone has left the house. I was tip-toe-ing when I left my room to check if it was in the living area. I climbed the sofa just to really make sure it wasn’t near the shoes’ rack. I even make noises so that maybe it might disturb and annoys that grossest thing that have ever lived and maybe it can go away perhaps to my next door neighbour cause I’m sure it was looking for food, stealers I told you. I almost called my grandmother who lived just next block about one small road away on the 11th storey but I realised it would trouble my grandmother so that thought quickly cancel itself out. Yes, I’m very extreme in finding what I saw cause I have an evil theory. If any of the insects come crawling in my house, I want them dead *the most evil laugh you could ever hear*, now you know why is it an evil theory.

I have a new member in the black precious stuffs that I have. There’s Blackie my (well, I share this with my sister who was the one wanting it but up till now she can’t remember any chords) guitar, my (but still I’m kind enough to share it with my sister) lappy and now I welcome my new cammy, Nikky to the black stuffs family. I want to go experimenting with it taking beautiful shots. So, I’m planning to go a night photography one night with anyone willing to go with me.

After my aunts and uncles found that I have Nikky, they totally said that they were not wrong that I’m like the most expensive child among my cousins for my mother’s side that is. They said I always get what I want, hey, that’s not 100% right. I have to really wait, like for example a new handphone. I’ve waited for more than a year for it, and still I haven’t got one. But still, I’m patience enough to wait. Patience and endurance is the key I must say and good reasoning will also help, it’s like a plus point. By owning a DSLR, I’m not labelling myself as a photographer. I’m still learning and experimenting with it and its function and stuffs.

6 random things that will eventually
pop-out of my mind while I’m typing this up.
1. It’s been long since I use my diaphragm to play a clarinet, I miss playing clarinet.
2. I’m saving money for the coming module, I know it needs lots of it.
3. I want to eat chocolate pocky, it’s been long since I’ve created snow angles in my mind.
4. I’m missing someone but I don’t know who that someone is (????).
5. I had a weird dream about cutting my hair super short, I hope this dream is just crap cause I prefer having long hair for now till it continues growing to where I want.
6. Go and take a look at my multiply account for pictures on how I spent the past few days/weeks. The link is at the side. ((: